Joey
You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
Family, Clique, Lee Hyukjae, Lee Donghae, Cho Kyuhyun, Super Junior, Running Man, Floral, Tribal, Cosmic, Knitwears, Magic, Books, Oxfords

So much feelings. So many things have been happening and I don't know where to start.
Not gonna mention the unhappy things because I don't think it's worth mentioning. These people should just go reflect on themselves.

YOU. The first time I saw you, I noticed you, but I didn't really bother much after that. But nowadays... hmm. You are a mysterious guy, and I have to admit that's what attracts me to you. You give me the feeling like you have built walls around you, not letting anyone get close to you. I don't know why. I know I'm just presuming and assuming everything but you're not helping at all since you seem unapproachable. I don't know how to approach you but I really want to get to know you better.
 I want to know more about you and I have no idea why.

I want to be the one who opens you up, be the one who changes you, be the one that makes you happy and comfortable. I don't know why, but that's what I want to do whenever I see you. I know I'm thinking too much but I really want to know more about you.

 Are we even friends? I said hi and you responded coldly, I think. I don't dare to look into your eyes, because I just couldn't muster up my courage to look into your eyes. I don't want to fall for you, because I know you are just another star I can't reach :(

It's actually kind of irony. I was happy that day because you... :) At least for that few minutes, your attention was on me. It was stressful but I actually liked the fact that you took note of the littlest things I said heh. Could you open up to me? Sigh, I hope you will.

Next week's E-learning week and I can't believe I'm saying this but I want to go to school! And it's because of you :)

Friday is gonna be a busy busy day! meeting up for project work, piano, CQ, envoys AGM! hope it'll be fun and productive! back to top?

4th week of school. I don't actually have a CCA yet can you believe it omg.
But oh well. I'm going for BACOMM's bonding camp this saturday and Tennis training on thursday. Excited to meet new friends! So want to join a sport because I feel so not sport-ish. Haven't really tried a sport for 17 years of my life. Okay I can't really count Tchoukball because I quitted awhile after I joined so yeah =/
I'm considering softball as well, if not I'll just forget everything and join some club or something. I mean, you can try everything and anything and also nothing right? If that even makes sense.

4th week, yet I haven't even seen you once. This sucks. It sucks having to look for you during breaks. I hate that feeling, but what can I do? Oh, or maybe I shouldn't see you. I mean, what could I possibly say if we really met? probably exchange some greetings and that's all? yeah, probably.

I intend to try new stuffs, go to camps, be friendly and spontaneous, cheerful, SCORE A 4.0 GPA. YEAP =) I intend to try things that I never got to do when I was in secondary school. Things like organizing events and camps, being part of a committee, participate in camps, join a sport etc etc

Till then, I've been doing tutorials aft tutorials and I think I've identified my weaker subjects so gonna have to work on it. Been spending money like water these days feel so freaking guilty. But I love shopping! Can't resist pampering myself when I see pretty stuffs heh OM is tempting me so much and I really want to go shopping there since I haven't been there in like months. But they always come up with prettier things every week =/

Oh anyway I got myself the I AM shirt. The white one! Yay! I took the black at first but I gave in to Hyukjae. Yes, Lee Hyukjae wore the white one. Ok I personally prefer the white one as well. so Hyukjae wearing white I AM shirt = double yay!

I better go catch up on my tutorials! BYE back to top?

3rd week of school approaching! Wow, it's been almost 3 weeks since I've stepped into poly. I'm slowly adapting to this life and it's been pretty fine except for the fact that lessons are like super fast. bombarded with tutorials and have to revise everyday. Whoever said that poly was less stressful than JC was lying, complete lie.

Well, I chose this path, and I'm not gonna regret anything. Oh anyway, I've joined a couple of CCAs! I think. Well... there's an interview for SSC and BA envoys soon! Yeah I failed the ambassadors interview, as expected. Maybe I'll try again next year *shrugs* oh and BA comm! heh gonna try something new since it's all about acting talking dancing singing! I've always wanted to try something new, something that I haven't tried before. oh but it seems like all my CCAs are related to the BA block. Maybe I should try something else. Thought of joining skating but two practices per wk oh myyyyy me is damn lazy so me should find sth slackish hehz

was actl glad that our BA comm tchr cancelled our lesson but bcos lessons are cancelled on tues, POA just had to be replaced tmrw so I have a 3 hour break. Like what? Oh anyway I'm gonna meet Cheryl tmrw for lunch hehz I'll probably tell her I wanna go over to canteen 4 then I'm gonna see if I can meet... I still kind of wanna meet you. A part of me still wants to see you a little.

anyway I've been dedicating my weekends to my dear modules that I'm dying to ace. I definitely want a 3.8 GPA and above at the end of my 3 year education in poly. Not gonna risk not studying since my course are all chiongsters... So c'mon A's, COME TO MEH!

Meeting the girls on Friday! Excited! Gonna rant and whine and gossip abt everything and anything to them!! Can't wait! :)



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I don't want anything to happen to our friendship. Although we've only known each other for a few days, I don't want you to distance yourself from us. We may all have known each other not for long, but being in a big group like that is really fun and rare. I really don't want anyone drifting away from each other.

You. I think you're a really faithful guy. I got to admit, I am disappointed, but I guess she must be a really big part of your life because you seem happy talking about her. It's okay then, let's just continue from what we have now and become closer. No bad intentions or anything, I just want us to become closer friends :)

And YOU. I guess it really happened. We are in the same school again after so many years. My heart already knew it, and that was the main reason why I went there today. To see if you were there. I wanted to see you, to confirm it myself, but you said it yourself, you are there too. I don't even know if I should feel happy or sad. I don't now if I'm over you, I don't know what I would do if I see you again, I don't know if my feelings will come back if I see you again. Has it really gone away? Even I myself am not sure. You gave me so much to remember, and things like that are not so easy to forget. You used to be really important to me, but you just walked away for her like nothing really happened. I'm just wondering what I would do if I see you again. Smile? Say hi and chat? Hide? Act like strangers? But haven't I been thinking about it? Thinking about what I would say to you if I see you again? You used to meant everything to me, but now, it's not like that anymore. You knew I liked you, you obviously knew, everyone did, yet you didn't even say a single thing. You acted all nice and sweet but in reality you just walked away and tell someone else you love her. You know what? I'm gonna go with smiling and saying hi and stopping for a chat. I wanna show you I can live well, even without you.

Poly life is just totally different You'll be judged, and you don't know who is true and who is not. I miss my bff sisters. I can trust them with anything and I know they would always be there. It was so weird when I had my first day of school and they weren't there. It just felt weird without them being by my side. It's really too bad that now we are all separated. I think they are all really busy w/ their stuffs and I don't wanna bother them with my troubles too. I just miss how we can talk for hours and not get bored, go random shopping, sit in comfortable silence, laugh at every little thing, h2hs, everything... back to top?

I'm just hoping this will continue on. I swear my mood was freaking happy when you did those things. Totally brightened up my day with those little things.


Can't even explain the feeling when we are talking or when I see you. Can't help but smile
Oh, and did I mention? You look good and super cute no matter what :)

Let's become closer! :) back to top?

First week in poly! hmm it's been okay so far. My coursemates are all nice people, thankfully! Hope we'll be even more closer!

First day of school I had lunch w/ Pegasus! whoop yez and I got back my pegasus shirt!! happygirl ^^ then the next few days was just tutorials, workshops and lectures. A totally different lifestyle from secondary school. You want to listen then listen, don't want to listen then don't listen, but in the end you lose out. as simple as that.

It's only the first week and I'm already getting nervous. Gonna get all my textbooks by tomorrow! My course people are all 100% chiongsters so if I wanna compete with them I need to be on my toes all the time!

I'm still unsure of what CCA I wanna join. I wanna learn something new, yet I don't know what I want to learn. I don't know what I want. I wanna join BA envoys though! But there's an interview for it. I think I pretty much screwed up the ambassadors interview so... yeah. I was basically speaking whatever that came into my mind and I don't think I impressed them much. I heard there's at least a few hundred people participating in the interview so they probably wouldn't bother recruiting me. Oh well.

One of the most happening thing that happened this week was... TURBULENCE! yez dance party! We were awkward cos we didn't know how to club/dance so we stayed for awhile and left halfway. But something made me very happy ^^ I'm so glad I had the courage to do it! hehehehe wanted to go to movies under the stars but it was full house! so we took some snacks and left for clementi!
Had the most epic conversations with my coursemates! Jun Xian was so funny, seriously! Jolin and I was laughing like mad and relating to him LOL The whole thing was so funny and we chatted so long, only left about 11 plus. and yay, gonna have a mini outing on tuesday! whoop :>

so... I spent my day reading up on some stuffs and slacking and I finished skip beat! Tbh the ending was a disappointment though. I just realized there weren't much of Donghae too. oh well.

okay so school tomorrow I better sleep now! Hopefully the upcoming days of my poly life will be fun! :) back to top?

now for non idol-related stuffs... HAHAHA

so many things have been happening I don't even know where to start!

Been working, going out, slacking... yeah that pretty much makes up my whole holiday LOL anyway it's been one of my best holidays ever okkkkkk.

School is gonna start in a few days time and I'm kinda nervous. I hope my coursemates are nice people... I kind of miss HK now. YEZ I HAD A MINI SHOPPING TRIP AT HK YAYYYYY My mum and I just basically walked everywhere and anywhere we wanted and I got some cheap thrills and stuffs that SG don't have WHOO

oh and the most recent thing that happened is... BAOC!!!!
YEAP BEST ORIENTATION LA OK. had so much fun!! at first I wasn't looking forward to it at all, basically because I'm not really good at approaching ppl and I'm kinda awkward HAHA

First day of course it was awkward, but my SCs were damn nice people. I joined the performance team. ok I totally didn't expect myself to joing but my SC was so convincing he kept telling us how good is it so I got convinced to join LOL
Stayed back till like 9-10plus? for the rehearsal! I joined the mass dance HEHEHE I've always wanted to participated in mass dance but JVS only allow student leaders all those to participate in mass dance SO UNFAIR ZZZ so I decided to try my hand at dancing and tbh I suck at it BAHAHA WHO CARES

I was pretty stressed up cos I couldn't really catch the moves and I was doing the guy's part. I thought it was pretty cool doing more of hip hop. I was so nervous I almost wanted to leave the dance grp and join the acting group! but in the end I persevered (YAY) and my very nice SC taught me the moves the next day cos he did the guy's part also but I think I look super awkward LOL

so anyway 2nd day we had sports day! and cheers wheeee so funnnn cheers are really damn fun! and pegasus cheers are like whoop da best!!! then my SCs started playing mindgames... one of my groupmates got so pissed LOL
and then we had rehearsal at night! 2nd day was much better. I caught up with most of the steps and I was pretty glad and relieved.

3rd day was performance!! had to meet so early, like 7 plus?! ok almost same as first day. but the SCs were so hyper and funny in the morning, couldn't help but laugh HAHA then we touch up on some stuffs and chilled at the back. the girls started talking about ECs LOL so funny!! we were like a bunch of gossipmongers HAHA who caresss.
finally it was time to perform. I WAS FREAKING NERVOUS. I think I looked like awkward dancing. eh I first time dancing leh cannot judge ok. LOL aiya but don't dance also dance alr right... BUT IT WAS FUN! RLY FUN. It's like more of having fun than seriously dancing.

after the whole thing had our last cheers and stuffs with pegasus (AWW) the SCs and freshies were all like "we love you more!!!" Our SCs are like da best manzzz wouldn't have enjoyed if it wasn't for them. then after that... we invaded KAP's mac. LOL so funnnnn bonded so much more w/ my group mates!! ^^

ok so that's pretty much BAOC. So gonna join as an SC next yr!! ^^

speech day @ JVS later on!! BYEZZZZ back to top?